Former Yorkshire cricketer Azeem Rafiq mentioned he felt “sick to the abdomen” when he noticed antisemitic feedback he made a decade in the past.
In an interview with the Jewish Chronicle, the 30-year-old player mentioned he was deeply sorry for the offensive remarks and that he “deserved the flak”.
The disparaging messages on social media about one other Asian cricketer in 2011 got here to gentle after Rafiq gave tearful testimony to MPs about the racism he had faced when enjoying for Yorkshire, which has despatched shockwaves via the game and led cricket bosses to hold a crisis summit.
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Whereas he felt the scenario was not the identical because the racial abuse he personally suffered, Rafiq mentioned he didn’t search to decrease his personal actions.
The previous England worldwide instructed the newspaper: “I do not keep in mind making these feedback. Once I was despatched them, I felt sick to my abdomen.”
He added: “The circumstances do differ. I do not suppose I’ve ever performed with anybody Jewish, so it was not precisely the identical. However I do not need to play it down. I’ve damage individuals. My real feeling is that I deserve the flak. I f***ed up.”
“I am deeply sorry. I do not recall making another antisemitic remarks, however I am going to return and give it some thought.
“When one thing would not have an effect on you, you do not keep in mind it. You do not recollect it.
“I am simply distraught. The one Positive factor is that it exhibits how huge the issue is, and it is going to maintain the difficulty forefront in individuals’s minds.”
Rafiq went on: “In relation to the individuals who had been racist in the direction of me, all I’ve ever requested for is an apology and for them to just accept what they’ve carried out.
“Then I would give them a second likelihood. My feedback damage individuals. It is for the Jewish group to resolve whether or not you guys settle for my apology.”
Pressed over whether or not he noticed himself as a part of the issue or a part of the answer, he mentioned: “It would not matter what occurs to me.
“What does matter is that folks maintain speaking about racism in cricket and make the sport welcoming to everybody, no matter who you might be.”